It's almost time for the Utah State Fair. Last year at the fair was when everything started unraveling. I've had a lot of unpleasant memories in my head the last few days.
Nathan and I had talked a little about divorce several years before. It wasn't right then. I was in an unhealthy place. I had a lot of anger. We went through counseling at several periods during our marriage, and we went through counseling at that point as we tried to make it work. I've grown a lot since then, including resolving my anger issues.
I know that I worked hard to make us work. I know that walking away was the right choice for me, and that the time was right. I know Heavenly Father was with me through those incredibly hard weeks of decision-making and final discussions. I am so grateful for how much I have healed. I know that I am a daughter of God and that I am of worth.
Favorite parts of the last week:
- Making foil dinners while camping and looking over to see my niece eating raw bacon. Eww!
- Failing miserably at multiple rounds of a Wii racing game with my nephew until finally he told me he didn't think this game was made for me.
- Telling a friend that I kept forgetting we were in the 3rd quarter (at work this matters for budget reasons), and he said he'd remind me. I walked into his bathroom later to find 3 quarters on the counter and laughed so hard.
- Listening to my mom tell me stories of her growing-up years.